Sunday, January 27, 2013

2 steps forward 1 HUGE step back

Our holidays were wonderful. I had an amazing time in India. And the husband and pup enjoyed their time in Alabama.
I spent Christmas standing on a train platform freezing my bum off for 7 hours and New Years on a safari finding a tiger (which we saw 2)! Of course I have lots more stories. Here are a few pictures from my trip.
(look closely... you can see the tiger)
flower ceremony on the Ganges
lovely lunch at a hunting lodge
our group at the Chanderi rock paintings
trying to get wifi in Alipura
palace wall in Orrcha
Taj Mahal

Thank you SOOOOO much Ma for this amazing trip! I can't wait to go back.

Enough about the holidays... How about an update about our adoption.
As we are getting close to submitting our entire home study packet, I have had mixed feelings. I'm so excited to say that we are done with our home study but I'm so scared to go "active" with our adoption agency.
Here is how it works...
While finishing up our home study, I have been filling out our profile with American Adoptions. Once we have passed out home study, we can go "active" with AA. Being active means birth moms can look at our profile online and/or via hard copies.
If a birth mom likes us (and she meets our criteria), we will have a phone conference with her and an adoption counselor. If she likes us even more after our phone conference, then she informs AA that she wants our family to adopt her baby. Once that happens, we have 48 hours to come up with the bulk of our money ($20,000). We are NO where close to that...
And so I feel discouraged, overwhelmed, and stressed.
How will we be able to get this money? Do we have to put off our adoption even more? What can we do to be able to finish and follow through with this?
These questions are a broken record in my head.
I am trying so hard to not worry and pray that God takes over but I seem to not be able to give up my control. I am thankful for a husband who is calm and relaxed about everything. He has been a great support and is there to talk me off my cliff when I am about to jump.
With all this being said... I pray that we will see answers soon.